Whenever life hits in the most challenging of ways I am amazed by the resilience of the human being. The horrific events in CT made me pause, take a breath, and feel more fully. In 2002 my family experienced a loss when my 5 1/2 year old sister died in a skiing accident.
Loosing a child is devastating and I have only experienced it as a brother. As a parent I imagine the feelings of grief and despair are amplified. It seems so unnatural to see the life of such a young one pass so quickly. I struggled with the 'why' for many months.
What I am most grateful for is that my family took time. It took me about six full months to slowly begin to come out of the haze of robotic life. It took others longer, over a year to get back up, to compost the anger and grief, and to step back into living once more.
A part of my heart will always be broken and in some bizarre way I am thankful that I was able to dive into the well of despair, to heal, and to allow for the love and support of friends and family.
To this day I still think of Leonie and celebrate her life. Her sweetness, grace, intelligence, beauty, and loving presence. I feel her.
To all those in pain and the long journey ahead, blessings!